Thursday, August 26, 2010

I nod
As I turn my gaze respectfully downwards
but like you said
of the Japanese
It's not to signify agreement
but to acknowledge
your voice
has hit my ear

from there
the words are carried
along nerves
until it reaches
the marvel of an organ
no creator
designed for me.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I dreamt
that my childhood dog
was a border collie
but more human
restless, and unable to sleep
so I stroked her fur gently
but she bit me and wouldn't let go.

now I'm lying awake and it's
too hot for a blanket but
I need one to cover
my face
and block out
the morning light

Monday, August 23, 2010


I can't control
the things I do in my sleep
my jaw is tight,
even now.

I saw the sunset today.
I heard the lack of cars. I listened to the ocean,
powerfully colliding with the land.
I admired the blue green red orange purple sky.
I looked for the moon.

Still, my mind
won't let my body
lay still.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

It's Time

I want to wake up
to be a part of everything

I still don't know my neighbors names
I haven't walked an unworn path
in maybe my whole life
I am stuck in my ways
in my solitude

I fall back on it
lie in its comforting embrace
and am grateful to not
hear another person's thoughts
or have them hear mine

but at the same time
I know the sad future this
is leading towards
dying alone
is not the worst thing
but to have never let any one in
past this untouched doorway
is shameful

Wednesday, August 4, 2010


I am sincerely
scared that one night
or even day
while extremely intoxicated
I am going to do something rash

In the moment
I will believe it is my truth
my sincere desire
to never again see you
to never look in a mirror
and see my face.